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my life in genting...

2008-01-14T10:52:00.000-08:00

sigh.. have been in here since 26th dec.. for so long i din update my blog.. sigh..

my life here was quite miserable.. i miss my mom's scolding, my dad's mumbling, my sis's silly act and too my dog google.. really miss them a lot.. more terrible i thought i will be sleeping with chinese room mates.. but ended up all malays in first world hostel.. erm.. at first not really get used to it.. but sooner or later ok la.. coz very fren with them, v watch malay dramas n movies together( luckily i like malays dramas as well as movies.. hehehehe)

working life was suck at first.. i can say i cried for almost a week.. even yum cha time cried out.. mayb not used to it ba.. here the life is kutuk here kutuk there.. n i still can't get used to it.. just wanna be myself.. haha.. very pity la at here.. miss my family.. when my mom phone ask me how? i just simply answer say not bad la, ok la.. scare they worry.. even every call i also cut it short.. really scare i will burst into tears again..

thanks for coca, cheepek, cheekin.. they are the fully support frens.. hehe.. glad to have them over here.. they r the most gentlemen n nice!! haha.. really.. without them, i think i sure commit suicide de.. at first thought here working sure very good.. but dunno here got so many dark secret.. even kaikam ask me to just quit.. but must be responsible ma..

now it's been 3 weeks here de.. get along quite well with others except some la.. really cannot pay respect.. coz she always teach me wrong stuff.. how to respect? i really dislike her la.. but i din show out.. n din kutuk la.. just speak the truth.. hehe...

today i online in maxims.. genting online very expensive ma.. haha.. 1 hour RM10 wo.. who wan?? n so good mr.raj ( director for m spa ) he offer all the spa receptionist to stay at maxims one night.. yahoo!! this maxims minimum one night also RM7000++ le.. now can stay sure syok la.. haha.. got plasma tv, hi-fi, a personal jacuzzi, transparent shower room, LCD computer, king size bed, n so many stuff.. really is maxims.. so high class.. but this room consider cheap one la.. haha.. at least i get the experience.. hehe..

sleeping in a room is nice.. colleague asked me to sleep with them n i refuse to, mayb i wan own privacy, i wan sleep naked.. haha.. i know they gossip bout me de, say i lone-ranger.. but i really can't mix with them.. they just colleague ma, not frens.. both are different.. after come here, i have learn to be more independent.. i'm not scare to be alone anymore.. here all depends on myself tho i already very independent last time..

i miss my frens in ipoh.. i miss google the most.. i really scare he forget me.. he's the one i most love.. i love him can say more than kaikam.. he listens to me, he give me bully, he sticks me, just lean on me.. sob.. i really miss him very much.. if can bring him to genting, i really wanted to.. very miss him........

life here really tough.. i dunnno how long can i survive.. i really wanted to leave just like tat.. really.. but i need to go on.. i thanks winnie n mei yen for supporting.. winnie phoned me n i cried over to her.. she's a really good listener n best pal n best sis i ever had.. just dunno y got ppl wanna humiliate her name.. really dunno y..

i din mean to be rude.. just the truth

2007-11-22T21:24:00.000-08:00

i check my friendster.. saw some bulletin.. then eventually i log in to the leo b2 website to check out the video for the camp.. erm... wat i feel is : " huh?" that time of feel...

firstly is to see the campsite.. yeah.. it's located at cameron.. a cool place specially during night.. then.. the video shows the facilities in the camp.. surau.. toilets ( it's like malay's bathroom, sO dark.. ).. then the site where to put tent ... i was like omg.. this call a campsite?? it might be the worst campsite i have been to.. the trees.. make me feel so creepy.. n there's so many lalang along the way.. in this moment.. i greatly feel tat sufes campsite is much much more better..

haha.. not to praise the sufes campsite la.. it's everybody opinions.. many schools they give the prefects to the sufes to have leadership camp.. everyone was enjoying over there.. before i decide to proceed into this campsite.. i asked everyone's opinion.. all would say:" sufes lah.. it's fun in sufes.." .. i have been to there last time.. when i'm form2.. memorable moments there with amc prefects.. the campsite is still the same.. just more facilities, more accomodation over there.. n.. the most important : it's CLEAN!!~~ ( p/s dun believe?? check on in www.sufescamping.com )

until january.. our country will b wet.. means that it's raining season.. when i know the district camp is held in cameron.. oh.. cold.. raining + highlands = freezing cold.. i dunno how the campers can survive.. i really dunno.. just one word- pity.. haha..i dunwan to pynalyse much la.. just i point out my view.. those lions can slepp in dom with at least a roof on top sure won't be freezing.. but the campers under the tent.. cameron's temperature at night is about 16degree.. plus rain... sigh.. gd luck..

my doggie~~~

2007-11-22T21:23:00.001-08:00

last day at school~~

2007-11-07T06:55:00.000-08:00

today is my last day in smi.. erm.. not exactly last day lar.. is considered last day meeting the teachers n the lower forms as well.. din feel any much today..

i woke up late.. haha.. mayb ponteng too many days n got use to waking up late.. my mom fetch me to school today.. i knew i'll be late, but my feeling was " late mai late la, today last day.. nobody will write my name down".. weird... haha.. usually i'll be so scare.. scare stand so luar biasa.. everybody will be looking " wah, upper6 wo.. the onli girl ( cz always late also majority me) also late" .. then the lower forms prefect which i know will ask:"y late geh? cannot wake up leh? ".. i will feel so embarassed.. haha..

when i reach school.. i walk in so proudly.. to the basketball court..everybody is lining up according to class.. so i just walk to my class n stand there to listen to the "do n don't"..hehe..waited to get my slip n enter class fOr the table arrangement..

back tO class.. i gOT tO know my place.. oh my... i sit the second row.. in front!! wahhaa.. n pei ching just sat besides me.. yer.. thought i'm sitting behind can see ppl's reaction during exam tim.. haha.. cannot de lo.. haha.. we have our class party.. which is so small.. hehe.. but everyone had a wondeful time...

the food were all sweet in taste.. ee... until i feel so cold...haha.. first time ever i eat sweet stuff till i feel cold.. even lai har also ask " har.. u eat sweet stuff will feel cold so weird one?".. haha.. then teacher were talking bout the pa essays.. i went back to class with peiching.. we chit chat in the class about ghost whisperer n dramas.. wahaha.. chat till so syok~~

later, my gang back jo.. tat is dugong, chee pek, mun mun, sau theng.. plus me n peiching.. hehe.. v chat bout dugong life when me n peiching absent.. wahaha.. his life is full of sok leng.... whehehe...

really.. time flies.. it's the last time my gang chat together.. at 11am.. mrs.yee ask us to go back... wat?! so early?? so, i plan me n my gang went to opposite padang the mix cuisine restaurant to continue our chat.. we ask along tracy too... hehe...

we cchit cht the most loud in the cafe.. we chat.. we laugh.. we tease.. until.. wah.. the atmosphere was so high.. haha.. really glad tat everyone attend.. my gang is a bit weird.. the guys except chee pek will mix around.. the stupid dugong n mun mun they rather stayed at home.. to watch anime wo......

life still goes on.. i went back to school with tracy n continue our fm chat.. hehe.. while we chat.. little joshua comes by to apologize tat none of them wanna go to the nex camp.. i was in shocked.. he says other schools as well as amc, samtet , poilam n also smi leos can't attend to nex camp.. not even one..

i was totally depressed.. lion alan.. wat have nexwave done to make u so hate of our club?? u are the one who ask us to organised a district camp.. u also said tat if we can't have district, we can just organised a region camp.. but.... wat happen?? u back stap us... i just dunno y other leos din notice it at all.. but.. i will still make my camp successful.. i will make it happening.. i swear...

sigh.. sad la...

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2007-11-04T05:49:00.001-08:00

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last day of tuition~

2007-11-04T03:24:00.000-08:00

today is my last day for the bio tuition.. when i reached there.. i looked around.. my last time sitting in this big class with a big screen.. time really flies.. i knew...but i wonder how come this year passes so fast?!

my bio tuition in sri kota is the best ever tuition in my life.. i gt a big big room.. a big big screen.. fully air-con.. teacher great!! how great?? erm.. he teaches biology using visualisation.. he's so funny n so gd. no wonder he quit his job as a goverment teacher n just teach tuition.. no wonder he drives BM.. no wonder he got a special laptop.. so many no wonder..

he's the onli teacher tat give us so many useful notes n topics.. onli teacher who let us watch the newest trailer.. the newest news.. the funniest parts.. just one word to describe him : incredible!!

he's great.. if i can score well.. i bet not because of louis mary in smi, but is him!!! i greatly promote him to others!! really.. his every class is full.. in my year.. in the same tuition center.. he got almost 300 students... incredible right? n while he teach, everybody listen.. all get attracted by his teaching.. haha.. but he's not a con man la..

too sad.. today is the last day.. i bet i surely misses his voice, his teachings.. v give him a big clap today.. for his teaching.. if his words is more touching today.. i bet many will cried.. hehe.. because he's too gd.. he makes us knew things around us.. he teaches things beyond the syllabus... proud to have him as a teacher.. really... really appreciate it..

a wonderful n tiring day..

2007-09-23T21:29:00.000-07:00

Wah.. today was indeed a very very tired day for me.. it’s our leo workshop day n also st.michael form sixth prom night.. erm.. before the day starts, I hv already sense the tiredness of the day..

I woke up at 4.30am on Saturday, reason is v need to reach ymca by 6.15am for some briefing bout the workshop tat day.. so, aik hoe was in charge to fetch me n boon tat to ymca as he lives near with us.. I waited at my house living room starting from 5.10am because aik hoe says he’s reaching my house at just 5 something.. from the information I had, I need to wait from 5 till 6am.. haha.. silly right?? I was asleep till 6.15am, yet aik hoe still not yet come. Erm.. I phone boon tat bout it.. n boon tat phones him.. aiya.. he was late la.. he rush to my house by dunno where is my house.. wahahah.. I walk out to the shops to wait for him.. ( a very good morning walk for the beginning of the day)

We reach at ymca at 7.05am.. aik hoe thought jasmine might scold him as v really r very late.. luckily jasmine as nice.. she din angry bout anything but just our leo presedent.. I was quite angry too.. he went for fun at other places leaving some of the oc handle the whole project alone!! How can he did tat?? Where’s his responsibilities?? Right??

The first session for the workshop was fun.. v were tested by a physcology test n was separated into groups.. I was in a group with George Kenneth, quan, jillvent, yi an.. v r asked to draw our dream school in a piece of mahjong paper n to present it later.. our school was fanstastic.. wahaha.. we got swimming pool in the middle of the school, a majestic building with clean rivers surrounding us, snow world, big library, ktv, studio, theme park, crazy lab( no ppl likes), n some small building of staff room n classes.. we are said to have peacock attitudes.. v loves glamour.. loves attention.. n loves playing.. I feel this test was so accurate.. I get to understand myself better n so do my frens.. the are peacock ppl, eagle ppl, owl ppl n dove ppl.. each person have own good.. n I believe in it.. hehe

I went back at 1pm.. the roads are so jam till I reach my house at 2pm!! And I have an appointment with sau theng at 1.45pm!! we agreed to meet up at the salon to set our hair n make-up.. I was so so late.. n so so rush.. I hurry bath n flea out..i reach the salon late at 2.30pm.. waited for sau theng to finish her make-up.. she dressed so so elegant.. n I’m so weird.. mayb bcoz she’s so much prettier.. wahaha.. the make-up spend is about RM 20 ringgit.. erm.. consider cheap to me.. we set our hair.. I gave a haird band to the hairdresser to set my hair.. ask him how much to set our hair.. he says not expensive.. but.. after finish, it cost RM 25 per person!!!! Wow wow wow wow wow.. very expensive la..haha

We need to reach there by 5pm said mr.karu( coordinator of form6 ).. but sau theng n I reach there at 5.10pm.. late.. lucky.. lucky tat the registration is still on.. hehe.. if not cahm lo.. need to find karu by own.. once we enter iccc( ipoh city n country club), I saw many ppl standing.. without chair.. n performance is on.. rock band!! Haha.. everybody’s in a high mood.. wahaha.. while me, busying taking pic with my classmates n all who I know in smi.. nice pic!! Everything went high but the most high part is the agogo n seventies songs.. n the fashion show by the lower sixes.. the one I admire the most is kishen’s class.. wahaha.. they really make use of their humour..

The function ends at 9pm.. so, I rush back to ymca for the workshop.. we got short of man power.. bcause mostly our leo members are all smi form 6.. hehe.. when I arrive in the hall, I see boring faces appears in all participants.. haha.. but then mayb because of how I dress, all the attention draws towards me.. make me so shy la.. haha .. after the Olympia college lecturer left, they shout with rejoice!! As they are free.. sigh.. can’t blame them much.. there’s different between help university college n Olympia college speakers.. right?? Hehe..

After the workshop, jasmine, George, Daniel n I went to rum jungle to clubbing!! Hehe.. can’t wait.. I tell my mom I’ll not be back tonight.. wahaha.. so, I can play as much as I wants!! We club.. we high.. we drink a lot, expecially me n Daniel ( we drink a cup of mix alcohols with quarter wisky, half coke n another quarter of calsberg) we drink almost 10 cups.. wahaha.. n we dance non stop.. pic snapping all the way..

We meet science1 frens in smi too with William, kean shean, ivan, hilyan, boon tat, sin hao,wai tian, tuck yuan n science2 chee keen. Ang xian gang.. with dicky, choon yuen, zi yang, wee,khong ann n others as well.. we full the place bhind the stage of rum jungle.. we shout, we drink!! Lot’s of fun man.. will not forget how high n excited I am yesterday..

We club until it close around2.15am.. then we went to mamak stall.. most of them are drunk.. left few still ok.. only me n Daniel are totally wake.. haha.. we reach ymca at around 4am.. gates were close.. we knock the door till awaken the jaga.. wahaha.. very high la we.. hehe..
We gamble till around 6.45pm.. take a rest with dicky( sleep the most from beginning), khong ann, daniel, me, boon tat, n jasmine on a queen size bed.. two poor kids were sleeping on the floor later.. wahaha.. so bad la we all as committee bullying the youngs n at 7am.. we went out to buy dim sum with khong ann, boon tat, quan n me.. we drink morning tea n back..i sleep a while for around 10 mins.. n I feel someone is drawing on my hand.. n I ignore it as I really din sleep for 24 hours.. when I was awake, my hand got some beautiful drawing.. that’s a pig on my hand.. wahaha.. I wonder who drew it.. still trying to figure it out..

The workshop continues till 12 pm where I left with my dad’s car n sleep all way long till 4pm.. tired la..

*I enjoyed a lot during this day.. thanks for all who I meet n high with.. hehe.. wanna study de.. just left 57 days..

the fact at last

2007-09-14T10:37:00.001-07:00

just now.. i started online.. eventually i met dexson.. a friend of wendy, once her bf.. or to say, another victim.. i invite winnie to our chat room n save the whole conversation.. just to let the world know that winnie n i din create stories to blame her.. the world deserve to know the fact.. thanks god for giving me this opportunity.. i really din think tat my prayer was answered by god.. i still remember yesterday i sit back n think wat i did are right or wrong.. n i ask god.. wat should i do.. should i continue or let god finish it? and today, i got the answer de..

thanks for the cooperation ya dexson.. hope she will realise wat she did.. hope she will know crying will not always win.. the facts and reality conquer the world.. hope he will know tat too.. jun yue.. it's all depends on u.. wherther to continue or not.. hope tat u think nicely.. n wendy, i said i'm not interested in jun yue either.. if u dun love him.. pls dun make fun of one's feeling.. it's very awful and terrify.. did u know tat??

This is our conversation at MSN
Dexson says (9:57 PM):hello..
michelle says (9:57 PM):winnie,dex here..
W!nNi3~ says (9:57 PM):hi
michelle says (9:57 PM):ask him ba wan?
W!nNi3~ says (9:57 PM):ok
Dexson says (9:57 PM):hi
W!nNi3~ says (9:57 PM):hihi
Dexson says (9:57 PM):winnie ?hi nice to meet u
W!nNi3~says (9:57 PM):nice to meet u too
Dexson says (9:57 PM):im still blur blurwats happening ?
W!nNi3~says (9:58 PM):i want to ask about Wendy stuffwanna to noe the truth
michelle says (9:58 PM):ya..
W!nNi3~ says (9:58 PM):i heard tht u n her together b4
Dexson says (9:58 PM):yes ?yes
W!nNi3~ says (9:59 PM):u noe Alex Ling this fellow
michelle says (9:59 PM):she yesterday find u fOr wat Oh dx?*dex
Dexson says (10:00 PM):giv me 1 min
michelle says (10:01 PM):k
W!nNi3~ says (10:01 PM):Did he told u that his relationShip with wendy and say that both of them having intimate relationShip. u ask her n she confess it. Honestly, pls. although it's past bt still important.
michelle says (10:04 PM):pls tell..dun tell me u contacting her nOe, dec
michelle just sent you a nudge.
You have just sent a nudge.
Dexson says (10:06 PM):a while ok phone
W!nNi3~ says (10:07 PM):u call wendy
michelle just sent you a nudge.
Dexson says (10:08 PM):gf call me
michelle says (10:08 PM):hahaOh..still the same?
Dexson says (10:08 PM):another liao
michelle says (10:08 PM):wa
W!nNi3~ says (10:08 PM):=.=
michelle says (10:08 PM):wah u sO sui la haha always change girl
michelle says (10:09 PM):hahaha
W!nNi3~ says (10:09 PM):return to topic ya
michelle says (10:09 PM):kk paiseh dex, can u ans Our questiOn?
W!nNi3~ says (10:09 PM):disapear again ar
michelle says (10:10 PM):dunnO sigh
Dexson says (10:10 PM):pls giv me 10 min sharp i promise
W!nNi3~ says (10:10 PM):=.=
michelle says (10:10 PM):k
W!nNi3~ says (10:10 PM):k
michelle says (10:13 PM):let's cOunt ten minutes
W!nNi3~ says (10:13 PM):=.=hw to count
michelle says (10:15 PM):lOOk Own time
W!nNi3~ says (10:16 PM):
michelle says (10:19 PM):ten minutes de?
W!nNi3~ says (10:19 PM):not yet i guess
michelle says (10:21 PM):nOw?
W!nNi3~ says (10:21 PM):almost i think
Dexson says (10:22 PM):...sorry so sorry gf call hav to answerXD
W!nNi3~ says (10:22 PM):it's oknw can ans our Q
W!nNi3~ says (10:23 PM):..like ask criminal lyk tht
W!nNi3~ says (10:24 PM):sry dc
Dexson says (10:24 PM):its ok
W!nNi3~ says (10:24 PM):free dy
Dexson says (10:24 PM):free
W!nNi3~ says (10:25 PM):mind to ans my Q jus nw
Dexson says (10:25 PM):dun mind...
W!nNi3~ says (10:26 PM):Did he told u that his relationShip with wendy and say that both of them having intimate relationShip. u ask her n she confess it Honestly, pls. although it's past bt still important.
michelle has been added to the conversation.
W!nNi3 says (10:27 PM):ans here better
Dexson says (10:27 PM):.there or here ???
W!nNi3 says (10:28 PM):omg
Dexson says (10:28 PM):now i got 3 place relating here liao
W!nNi3~ says (10:28 PM):here. lu~ans here
Dexson says (10:28 PM):okokwe now close everything and mich reinvite ok?
W!nNi3 says (10:28 PM):no need.
Dexson says (10:28 PM):then here ?
W!nNi3 says (10:28 PM):just continue here'
Dexson says (10:28 PM):ok. i know alex
W!nNi3 says (10:29 PM):ya. wat he told u b4 bout he n wendy
michelle says (10:29 PM):k
Dexson says (10:29 PM):why ne ?u are alex gf ma ?
W!nNi3~ says (10:29 PM):=.=
Dexson says (10:29 PM):alex no gf now wor...
W!nNi3~ says (10:29 PM):i'm not
W!nNi3~ says (10:30 PM):I'M NOT NOT NOT
Dexson says (10:30 PM):wats the case now ?what is the case now ?wats happening
W!nNi3~ says (10:30 PM):u ans mine Q first
Dexson says (10:30 PM):u suddenly ask me like that.. how to answer ?so many things happened u hav to tell me 1st so i know what to say
W!nNi3~ says (10:31 PM):did he say tht wendy hav intimate relationp wit him?
Dexson says (10:31 PM):what do u mean by intimatating relationship ?
W!nNi3~ says (10:32 PM):having sex la=.=
Dexson says (10:32 PM):waah......
michelle says (10:32 PM):wah
W!nNi3~ says (10:32 PM):sry
michelle says (10:32 PM):very direct
Dexson says (10:32 PM):these things....cannot betray friend de leh
W!nNi3~ says (10:32 PM):i say intimate he don noe
michelle says (10:32 PM):means yes la
W!nNi3~ says (10:32 PM):y now cannot say
Dexson says (10:32 PM):aiyo
Dexson says (10:33 PM):i dun know u mah...
W!nNi3~ says (10:33 PM):=.=
Dexson says (10:33 PM):not talk even 10 sentence then tell u meh
michelle says (10:33 PM):just answer ba
W!nNi3~ says (10:33 PM):i gt go furum too lehhuh!
michelle says (10:33 PM):it's very imprtant
Dexson says (10:33 PM):dun talk out de w......
michelle says (10:33 PM):nOt fOrum is camp
W!nNi3~ says (10:33 PM):ya
michelle says (10:33 PM):u all same camp One.. at dusun ekO
W!nNi3~ says (10:33 PM):i jus want to change my word
Dexson says (10:33 PM):not really is sex
Dexson says (10:34 PM):the important thing din do lol..
W!nNi3~ says (10:34 PM):lu~ i don understand wat he mean le
michelle says (10:34 PM):huhi alsO dun und..can explain dex?
W!nNi3~ says (10:34 PM):y so different frm wat i heard
Dexson says (10:35 PM):ok lathn i ask u all.. u all also hav to answer honestly ok ?promise honestly ?
W!nNi3~ says (10:35 PM):sure100%
Dexson says (10:35 PM):did u have sex before ?
W!nNi3~ says (10:35 PM):=.=no
Dexson says (10:35 PM):thn u will not understand..aiyo...how to say...lol
michelle says (10:35 PM):i alsO nO
W!nNi3~ says (10:35 PM):u hav meh
michelle says (10:35 PM):that's y we need explainhaha
Dexson says (10:35 PM):Wa.... all also no......
Dexson says (10:36 PM):i dun believe
michelle says (10:36 PM):just explain la..
W!nNi3~ says (10:36 PM):really lo
michelle says (10:36 PM):dun believe?
michelle says (10:36 PM):we gOOD girl..
W!nNi3~ says (10:36 PM):=.= i guess it
michelle says (10:36 PM):knOw prOtect Ownself
Dexson says (10:36 PM):...
W!nNi3~ says (10:36 PM):yalo...we r gd gal
Dexson says (10:36 PM):hey.. not like that sayhahaha
W!nNi3~ says (10:37 PM):aiya...we r stil virgin la...k...pls stop those crapexplain pls
michelle says (10:37 PM):haha
Dexson says (10:37 PM):er... how u all consider still virgin ?
michelle says (10:37 PM):ecplanatiOn
Dexson says (10:37 PM):how do u define virgin ?
michelle says (10:37 PM):erm..
Dexson says (10:37 PM):diff ppl diff define
michelle says (10:37 PM):din dO stuff tat after married Onli can dO
Dexson says (10:38 PM):did u girls let gf touch breast before ?bf
W!nNi3~ says (10:38 PM):no
Dexson says (10:38 PM):thentouch breast outside shirt also no ?
W!nNi3~ says (10:38 PM):no
michelle says (10:38 PM):nO la
Dexson says (10:38 PM):if ur bf touched ur breast
michelle says (10:38 PM):u weird la.
Dexson says (10:38 PM):u consider virgin ?
W!nNi3~ says (10:38 PM):don ask me those Q la. i no bf
Dexson says (10:39 PM):aiyoi dun ask how i answer ?
W!nNi3~ says (10:39 PM):ya...i'm 100% virginsactisfic wit my ans
michelle says (10:39 PM):i can't say anyhting i gOt kissing haha
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W!nNi3~ says (10:40 PM):my god
michelle says (10:40 PM):my gOOdness!
Dexson says (10:40 PM):so to me , wendy is still "half virgin"
michelle says (10:40 PM):nO diff
W!nNi3~ says (10:40 PM):=.=...
Dexson says (10:40 PM):tats y i say..... diff ppl define virgin diffrent
michelle says (10:41 PM):k
Dexson says (10:41 PM):so if ur someone saw ur whole body , u still virgin ?according to u la..
W!nNi3~ says (10:41 PM):ya....u seems like b gd fren with Alex
Dexson says (10:41 PM):yes .we ofen communicate.why ?
michelle says (10:41 PM):er..
W!nNi3~ says (10:41 PM):u nv see ur body urself b4 meh
Dexson says (10:41 PM):can i know the whole thing now ?..
michelle says (10:41 PM):can i hv his num Or?
W!nNi3~ says (10:41 PM):if u r blind then i nth to say lo
Dexson says (10:41 PM):i mean to a guy lahhhhh
W!nNi3~ says (10:42 PM):ok.lu explain
Dexson says (10:42 PM):wad happen liao , can tell me ma ???
michelle says (10:42 PM):hOw u all knOe each Other?
Dexson says (10:42 PM):..........................
michelle says (10:42 PM):u must answer all ques first
Dexson says (10:42 PM):later u all dun tell i ma die...
W!nNi3~ says (10:42 PM):we will ok.i gurantee
W!nNi3~ says (10:43 PM):using my reputation
Dexson says (10:43 PM):okok...
michelle says (10:43 PM):sO, alex gOt tell when he break with wendy?i sure tell.. i Wnt' be tat bad
Dexson says (10:43 PM):okok..
michelle says (10:43 PM):sO, alex gOt tell when he break with wendy?
Dexson says (10:43 PM):ill tell the whole story ok
W!nNi3~ says (10:43 PM):ok
michelle says (10:43 PM):k
Dexson says (10:43 PM):i met wendy in the camp
W!nNi3~ says (10:43 PM):k
michelle says (10:43 PM):tell bak
Dexson says (10:43 PM):then we fell in love not long after that ( after the camp)
Dexson says (10:44 PM):then i confessed thru phone to her and she accepted
michelle says (10:44 PM):k
W!nNi3~ says (10:44 PM):den
Dexson says (10:44 PM):she told me that she was single all the longand i thought im her 1st bf
michelle says (10:44 PM):next?
Dexson says (10:44 PM):ok so we get along well for the first 2 month
Dexson says (10:45 PM):until ONE dayi chatted with michelle and michelle told me she got bf
W!nNi3~ says (10:45 PM):den
michelle says (10:45 PM):haha tat;s true
Dexson says (10:45 PM):and i went to her multiply
michelle says (10:45 PM):when u tell me u r her bf
Dexson says (10:45 PM):and michle say alex is her gf
Dexson says (10:46 PM):so i go her multiply , using her account search for "alex"and i found it
michelle says (10:46 PM):u twO sO trust each Other tO give accOunt?
W!nNi3~ says (10:46 PM):den yalo
Dexson says (10:46 PM):once i go inside , i saw alex hugging wendy and wendy kissing him i felt dead at that time
W!nNi3~ says (10:46 PM):u mean pic
Dexson says (10:47 PM):she was my 1st gf.. i really loved her .yes pic
michelle says (10:47 PM):wendy kiss him?
Dexson says (10:47 PM):kissing and hugging pic yes that time , wendy was at another camp
W!nNi3~ says (10:47 PM):at alex multiply
Dexson says (10:47 PM):i called her whole night yes......
W!nNi3~ says (10:47 PM):den
Dexson says (10:47 PM):that time , wendy was at another camp i tried to call her to tell ther truth to me
Dexson says (10:48 PM):she din pick phone at all.
W!nNi3~ says (10:48 PM):den
Dexson says (10:48 PM):her reason is no line then then
michelle says (10:48 PM):wakaO
Dexson says (10:48 PM):next day , she finished her camp i finally can call her up and i ask her who is alex?she say she dont know
michelle says (10:48 PM):wa
W!nNi3~ says (10:48 PM):den
Dexson says (10:48 PM):i was so mad that she still trying to hide it
Dexson says (10:49 PM):i cried like a linatic( lunatic) . at last she also dun tell the truth
W!nNi3~ says (10:49 PM):u cry so funny
Dexson says (10:49 PM):she keep say no yes
W!nNi3~ says (10:49 PM):den
Dexson says (10:49 PM):wad so funny sigh..
W!nNi3~ says (10:49 PM):nth.sry
Dexson says (10:49 PM):heartbreaking lehhhhhh 1st gf....
W!nNi3~ says (10:49 PM):okok sry
michelle says (10:49 PM):pity i can say
W!nNi3~ says (10:49 PM):i take bck my words
Dexson says (10:49 PM):deng i no mood say liao
W!nNi3~ says (10:50 PM):walao
Dexson says (10:50 PM):i think back also still felt the scar..
W!nNi3~ says (10:50 PM):say all la
michelle says (10:50 PM):dn like tat la..
Dexson says (10:50 PM):then i no choice
W!nNi3~ says (10:50 PM):yer....shouldnt b sad
Dexson says (10:50 PM):i leave a message on Alex's multiply
W!nNi3~ says (10:50 PM):mus b happyden wat happen
Dexson says (10:50 PM):and PRAY that he will call me
W!nNi3~ says (10:51 PM):den he did?
Dexson says (10:51 PM):because i dont know alex and i dont have his numberi wrote : alex , please call me back . urgent . regarding wendy
W!nNi3~ says (10:51 PM):ok.den
Dexson says (10:51 PM):the night he called me and i asked him whether is wendy his gf.he said yes
michelle says (10:52 PM):then?
Dexson says (10:52 PM):thn i told him im also her bf
W!nNi3~ says (10:52 PM):wat happen
Dexson says (10:52 PM):he shock after heard that
W!nNi3~ says (10:52 PM):fight ?
Dexson says (10:52 PM):no
W!nNi3~ says (10:52 PM):den
Dexson says (10:52 PM):we talked very peacefullyi dont know why , but we both just wan to make things right
W!nNi3~ says (10:52 PM):den
Dexson says (10:53 PM):he dont know wendy is cheating and neither am i so i asked him when he start dating wendy he said 1 year so very obviously im being cheated
michelle says (10:53 PM):1 year!!!!!!
Dexson says (10:53 PM):and alex also very innocent
W!nNi3~ says (10:53 PM):wat
michelle says (10:53 PM):gOt sO lOng?
Dexson says (10:53 PM):is wad he say la
W!nNi3~ says (10:53 PM):ya lo
W!nNi3~ says (10:54 PM):k den
Dexson says (10:54 PM):so i ask alex to call wendy
michelle says (10:54 PM):den?den?
Dexson says (10:54 PM):then he did and he asked bout mwme
W!nNi3~ says (10:54 PM):den
Dexson says (10:54 PM):then wendy finally admit.she have no choice but to admit liao
W!nNi3~ says (10:54 PM):ok.den
Dexson says (10:54 PM):after she admit to alex , alex cut the line and called me
michelle says (10:54 PM):sure..then?
Dexson says (10:54 PM):and i called wendy
Dexson says (10:55 PM):she also admit
W!nNi3~ says (10:55 PM):den
Dexson says (10:55 PM):she was crying so bad that looks like she did not do anything wrong i was so mad
W!nNi3~ says (10:55 PM):crying is her weapon wat to make everyone trust her
Dexson says (10:55 PM):so i cut the line and alex called me back soon after
W!nNi3~ says (10:55 PM):her
Dexson says (10:55 PM):and we discuss wad to do and we came out with a solution
Dexson says (10:56 PM):which is let wendy choose.we so stupid hor...
W!nNi3~ says (10:56 PM):ok
Dexson says (10:56 PM):wendy choose him
W!nNi3~ says (10:56 PM):him
Dexson says (10:56 PM):so im so sad lor...himU him after that day i did not call wendy anymore
Dexson says (10:57 PM):i just called her and tell her im really disappointed
michelle says (10:57 PM):cOZ he's nearer tO her rite?
Dexson says (10:57 PM):yes!thats the point
michelle says (10:57 PM):then?
Dexson says (10:57 PM):wendy told me , she was with him longer.. and he is able to take care of her because he is near to him
W!nNi3~ says (10:57 PM):den
Dexson says (10:58 PM):she is so damn damn damn materialistic
W!nNi3~ says (10:58 PM):y say tht
Dexson says (10:58 PM):i just felt很现实
W!nNi3~ says (10:58 PM):materialistic means she love$$$ leooo...
Dexson says (10:58 PM):not only $$$
W!nNi3~ says (10:58 PM):i gt wat u mean
Dexson says (10:59 PM):because alex keep reload her phone de
W!nNi3~ says (10:59 PM):no wonder
michelle says (10:59 PM):dunnO wat tO say
W!nNi3~ says (10:59 PM):den
Dexson says (10:59 PM):den..after that i added alex to my list lor..and we chatted...
michelle says (11:00 PM):next?
W!nNi3~ says (11:00 PM):den nw vry fren la
Dexson says (11:00 PM):and i get to know alex touched her whole before
michelle says (11:00 PM):whOLe?
Dexson says (11:00 PM):yes at alex's houee
W!nNi3~ says (11:00 PM):body
Dexson says (11:00 PM):please do NOT TELL ANYBODY ok ?....
W!nNi3~ says (11:01 PM):everyone noe tht
Dexson says (11:01 PM):just 3 of us at least
W!nNi3~ says (11:01 PM):no..
Dexson says (11:01 PM):dont tell ppl is DEXSON say de.............................
michelle says (11:01 PM):ahhaha
W!nNi3~ says (11:01 PM):y
Dexson says (11:01 PM):sigh..
W!nNi3~ says (11:01 PM):scare wat
Dexson says (11:01 PM):just i dont like it
Dexson says (11:02 PM):can ma ?
W!nNi3~ says (11:02 PM):bt can i say sry 4 thti will tell u y i did tht
Dexson just sent you a nudge
.W!nNi3~ says (11:02 PM):listen 1st k
michelle just sent you a nudge.
Dexson says (11:03 PM):can ma ?
You have just sent a nudge.
W!nNi3~ says (11:03 PM):i dy anssee up
Dexson says (11:03 PM):ok ok..hey giv me 10 min again please my sis calling me
W!nNi3~ says (11:03 PM):sis need 10 minutes ar
michelle says (11:04 PM):k
Dexson says (11:04 PM):sorry ya10 min count nowbrnbrb
W!nNi3~ says (11:04 PM):okok
michelle says (11:04 PM):k
W!nNi3~ says (11:05 PM):9 minutes to go...
W!nNi3~ says (11:06 PM):8 minutes....
michelle says (11:07 PM):8 minutes
W!nNi3~ says (11:07 PM):7.....
michelle says (11:13 PM):3 min
Dexson says (11:17 PM):backsorry
Dexson says (11:18 PM):where were we ?
Dexson just sent you a nudge.
W!nNi3~ says (11:18 PM):bck dy
W!nNi3~ says (11:19 PM):u noe when alex n wendy break
michelle says (11:19 PM):erm cOn ur stOry
W!nNi3~ says (11:19 PM):eh...lu u r bck
Dexson says (11:19 PM):last few month ba
W!nNi3~ says (11:19 PM):pardon? tis year?
Dexson says (11:20 PM):yes err
W!nNi3~ says (11:20 PM):my god
Dexson says (11:20 PM):nono i forgot..
W!nNi3~ says (11:20 PM):=.=
Dexson says (11:20 PM):i just know not very long.. and not very short and now wendy have another bf
ERROR!! has been sensored.. under 18 n privacy
W!nNi3~ says (11:20 PM):tis year only break is it
Dexson says (11:21 PM):i not sure
W!nNi3~ says (11:21 PM):u ketinggalan zaman artis year n last year also cant differenciate
Dexson says (11:21 PM):.....
W!nNi3~ says (11:21 PM):
Dexson says (11:21 PM):i dun remember....
W!nNi3~ says (11:21 PM):cn u ask alex
Dexson says (11:22 PM):ok...

** those tat do not believe in wat i said.. this is the evidence.. i din hope for anything.. just tat to let others know tat winnie n i are not the bad ppl.. the actual bad ppl is at out there.. pls be awake**

** winnie, at last wat we put inside our heart were release.. i feel so free.. do u feel tat too? n we got evidence.. i was so happy.. we win.. hehe.. thanks lot..**

sigh.. one day..

2007-09-14T06:12:00.000-07:00

Ah lu..Please..not dat i'm not dare to c your blog..becoz i treat u as my fren..I don want to read cuz i don want it affect our frenship..if someone say bad things bout u, i'm sure ur bf will protect u n scold dat person rite?? i'l do dat too but u're my fren..i don wish dat to happen. .I cherish u dis fren..so i wont go c ur blog or anyone else's blog cuz i put my trust on wendy..She din tell me wat u wrote, but i can feel dat not gud things rite..i don tink wendy will hurt me though..Maybe i'll be the one who hurt her leh..haha..anyway..thanx ya..

that's his message to me in friendster.. from once my tuition teacher that is in love with wendy.. i really dunno wat to say bout her.. she's so clever.. i was totally defeated by her.. yesterday, me n winnie plan to find evidence to point her out.. i in charge to find dexson, winnie find shiao shi n roassane( once her gf tat she hurt them so so much n yet believe in her now too.. ).. i sms dexson.. we contact back.. when i ask him did he contact wendy.. he say he din contact.. but he say :" just now she suddenly msg me say tat i can't be trust.. so weird la.. so long din contact de".. i dunno wat it means.. but i know she find him before me.. n mayb.. mayb she pretend to be so pity again to get his sympatised.. he din reply me after tat.. i knew.. he bellieves in her once again.. i was so depressed la.. how come everybody believes her but not me n winnie? her stuff onli both of us know.. we kept for so long just for her own good.. i dunno y.. just god will know..

today morning, feel so lazy to school.. think of not going but.. pei ching is going to kl for 3 days.. must at least meet her ma.. will miss her one.. wahaha.. i tell her tat.. hehe.. dunno she believe not leh? in class.. we got math at first then bio.. i get my bio paper two for structures, in 40 marks i get 15.. erm.. consider as?? dunno la.. i know i sure fail.. haha..

during recess, i ate with pei yean.. tell her bout my story.. she was confuse as i short cut so much. haha.. but thanks for listening ya.. indeed my good fren from the start.. hehe.. after recess is ps, teacher busy marking n i busy sleeping.. feeling not well.. my eyes hurting.. but along.. chit chat with pei ching n sau theng n chee pek too.. then comes to muet.. walao.. can't tahan her voice lo.. so loud.. how can can't listen to wat she speak?? n her eyes so big!! terrifiying la.. hehe..

later.. pa time.. i do my own stuff while she discuss the paper.. i wrong so many la.. my gang laugh at me for few times.. wanna know why? is bcoz when teacher said that the question many enswered correct n should not be wrong, i answered the question wrong.. " soalan ini banyak yang betul.. tak mungkin boleh salah, kan? mudah la.." .. me behind with wrong answer tell them la " i wrong wo.. ".. they laugh so so so so loud.. till teacher ask them.. make me so pai seh la.. haha

after school, i phone my mom.. see she's coming to fetch me not.. but, she din pick up her phone.. sob.. phone her few times de.. so, i decided to take public bus back.. thanks ya wai mun, accompany me walk to yik foong.. hehe.. quite shock when u find me in the front gate.. i thought u won't find me de..

i waited my mom lonely for one hour.. standing.. walking.. finally, she came.. i thought i can go home.. but then she bring me here n there.. we went to ipoh share market.. it was totally diff from wat i see in tv.. almost all aunties were there.. can't believe aunties also know how to play share.. specially those >55 years old.. wahahaha.. so bad la me..

** mayb.. mayb wat stella say is true.. dunno anything is better than know all.. but.. can i reject all those info? it just keep popping in front of me.. hope tat i really can cut all this stuff n wash my hands.. i'm so fed-up of it.. wendy.. wat u wanna do u continue ba.. i got no right to stop u.. but.. be careful of wat u did.. u will get retribution one day.. trust me.. as i believe in god.. **

** thanks to winnie tat is always by my side.. my frens tat supports me.. thanks a lot.. at least, i know i'm not alone.. really appreciate it very much..**

** dexson, paiseh ho.. i din know ur hp no credit.. i thought u will choose to believe her.. but now, all truth is out.. thanks a lot..**

i dunno wat to say.. i hate girls like u

2007-09-13T01:12:00.000-07:00

My day was sad I can say.. this morning, math teacher pass us back our math paper.. guess wat I got? 15 marks upon 100 for the first paper.. haha.. I dare to say it here? I dunno.. just tat time I dunno how to do.. the questions were easy, I just lost the technique n forget the formula.. I must really start to do math everyday!! I swear.. later on, in class, I keep on copying the answers from the math exam paper.. check whether I’m wrong at where.. nah, careless mistakes.. shame of myself..

After recess, it was biology time.. I love bio.. but dunno y I can get sure a low marks just for paper1!!! I get 15 correct upon 50! So so depressed la.. dunno wat to do.. but I knew it de.. I knew my result will be so worst.. more funny is.. my marks is same with chee pek.. the whole gang behind me were laughing.. saying we indeed are match.. wahaha.. funny? I divorce him de k? haha.. tak ada kaitan la..

After bio, it was chemistry.. feel so scare before teacher enters.. she’s holding my paper.. they say she’s very disappointed with our class result.. erm.. I knew I’ll fail ( once again ).. haha.. I really fail.. I get 33 marks.. reason : I dunno how to do n forget all the equations.. see.. tat wat is will be if dun study hard at first.. I wonder who says that lower6 is a honeymoon year n so do form4.. who says tat? I really wanna punch tat person de.. haha.. basic is important.. must know the basic only can conquer all the others.. know? Haha..

Cannot.. must really study de.. this is wat I said to myself everyday.. haha.. but no actions.. ehehe..
One joke for all :
wat we call tv younger sister?? We call her “ computer”

**wat for I spoil the relationship of u two?? I got my dear kk de.. I’m at least loyal than u.. u date with him one year de, in this year, dun tell me u din have any bf? Not even tat, do u ever tell others tat he is ur bf? I tell him just because I wanna let him know, I scare he might regret n blame for introducing such a fren.. I know he definitely choose to trust u.. it’s because u are so clever.. explain b4 u start a relationship.. u like to cry isit? Always use cry to get ppl’s pity.. I really look down on u la.. god create tears not to pretend pity.. most hate girls like u.. always cry for pity.. u win de.. I just will let god do his job.. I will not bother de.. u din deserve me to help.. careful of one day, u will be betrayed by love.. dun regret tat time.. but.. because of this, u FINALLY put him in ur blog.. if not, I guess, u sure say u r single n get even more bf.. **

wat i feel?

2007-09-11T20:59:00.000-07:00

well, i skipped school today.. feeling uneasy bout my body.. hates period.. always makes me suffer the pain tat i hate!! but, when i was in pain, i definetely reminds me of something i had done.. i will think deeply, wat i had done tat god makes me suffer this pain? n in each pain, i feel tat i'm closer with god.. the connection is so close..sometimes, i ignore god when he needs me.. but, wat it come when i needs him? he's always there.. by my side..

i like the movie of evan almighty.. something similiar to noah's ark.. i like those word tat GOD says.. he says:" if u pray to god tat helps to make ur family be more close to each other.. wat u think god will do? he just will grant u a closer relationship with ur family or setting some tasks for u n ur family? ".. it's so true.. watever we pray for.. we sure will have the mission set by god.. when u hope for good result, but u din study, can god help u? this remembers me bout the priest sayings after the mass at school.. " god will not help u if u dun help urself ".. yeah, it's right.. so, dun just hope but do nothing.. the biggest enemy is my ownself.. how i wish that the demon in my body was out.. just hope tat the angle is always by my side.. but.. it's equal.. when it comes to decision, the angle n demon in my heart will be fighting with each other.. at the end, who wins?? angle?? no.. i lose to the demon.. temptation is so wide outside.. i'm so weak to fight..

this morning.. after i wake up from bed.. i think bout wendy again.. mayb it's time for me to step aside.. she might hate me for ruining her love life.. but.. it's destroying others as well.. i know she hates me.. i sms jun yue this morning: "i suppose it's time to let u know..it's about wendy.. or mayb she tell u de.. whether is true or not.. i guess u sure will choose to believe in her..read my blog n u will knoe the real her.. i just can't let her hurting others.. moreover, it's u, my dear fren.." i knew his reply is wat i thought n wat i know bout her.. indeed, i'm correct.. got his message later : " thanx my fren for the concern..reali appreaciate..but i won't go c ur blog..becoz i trust in wendy..trust is the basic element of a relationship..no matter watever other say bout her,if she say no means no..n i dun care bout the past..i care bout the future..anyway..thanx ya.." i knew it will be like tat.. she's so clever.. jun yue, i feel tat u r foolish.. i know i might destroy u both relationship.. but..u deserve to know.. how can she date with others behind ur back? n u trust her so deeply.. i won't malign her withour truth.. it's ok.. as long as u are happy with it.. wish u happiness.. hope she will treat u well...

i feel tat wat i have done, i did it de.. thanks god for letting me know the real her.. i dunno y i will know tat much.. but because of god, i knew it suprisingly.. i have done my best.. hope she will realise wat she did was wrong.. but not " i know wat i'm doing!! (from her blog)".. she know wat's she doing?? are u insane or wat? i will not interfere ur business.. but, dun let me know more bout u.. pray to god tat he stops giving me information bout ur life.. if i ever knew wat u did again but hurting my frens.. i will not just let it be.. i swear.. i'm just doing wat i feel it's right.. i'm so sorry bout those who is in the black..
** u know the truth, but u still helps her.. i got nothing to say.. u got the right.. n i'm not wrong.. i feel i'm doing the right thing.. she's hiding a lot of things behind u.. u r her best fren.. she should be sharing her stuff with u.. but not hiding.. when u ask her, i bet she must be suprise.. not i wan to tell out.. is just beyond my limits..**

i will step back now.. as i feel it's not my bussiness..